Because we all get crushing news every once in a while. And crappy things happen. So you failed, right?
Yeah, I failed, too.
When I found out I wouldn't be going to med school at the end of this year, my initial reaction was sheer panic.
Not going was not part of the plan!
My whole life since I finished college had been about what I could do next to become a doctor. Delaying school for another year freaked me out, and I remember calling my sister first. I cried a lot. But ever the planner, Melissa told me to write down a list of things I could do to fix the situation.
I couldn't actually FIX the situation. As much as I wished for it, no magical letter was coming. The list helped me to visualize my next steps though. Damage control, as it were.
After a pretty tearful, long prayer, I realized that the Lord had already told me weeks in advance what my next steps were going to be.
D&C 6:23 came to mind:
"Did I not speak peace to your mind concerning the matter? What greater witness can you have than from God?"
Yeah, I failed, too.
When I found out I wouldn't be going to med school at the end of this year, my initial reaction was sheer panic.
Not going was not part of the plan!
My whole life since I finished college had been about what I could do next to become a doctor. Delaying school for another year freaked me out, and I remember calling my sister first. I cried a lot. But ever the planner, Melissa told me to write down a list of things I could do to fix the situation.
I couldn't actually FIX the situation. As much as I wished for it, no magical letter was coming. The list helped me to visualize my next steps though. Damage control, as it were.
After a pretty tearful, long prayer, I realized that the Lord had already told me weeks in advance what my next steps were going to be.
D&C 6:23 came to mind:
"Did I not speak peace to your mind concerning the matter? What greater witness can you have than from God?"
Although I was completely grateful for the Heavenly answer and comfort, it still sucked... more than just a little bit. Maybe I've had my heart broken before, but it had never felt as crushing as this.
So, what's failure anyway?
And how come we hear so many success stories, but hardly ever any failure stories?
I realized that my failures are going to shape my success story. I know that I'm learning lessons that Heavenly Father knows I need, and that He believes in me enough to not give me a trial I am not capable of dealing with. I need to remember that I can choose my reaction to my trials. Trials can serve as a reminder that He loves me. I have the potential to do great things, and He knows that, even when I forget.
Here's to the lessons I'm learning, and the ones to come.
And how come we hear so many success stories, but hardly ever any failure stories?
I realized that my failures are going to shape my success story. I know that I'm learning lessons that Heavenly Father knows I need, and that He believes in me enough to not give me a trial I am not capable of dealing with. I need to remember that I can choose my reaction to my trials. Trials can serve as a reminder that He loves me. I have the potential to do great things, and He knows that, even when I forget.
Here's to the lessons I'm learning, and the ones to come.
Learn. Learn. Learn. Learn. Learn.
Here's some oldies and newbies to get happy and motivated.
Dancing and singing along are allowed.
P.S. Phoenixes are creatures that are said to have risen from their ashes.
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